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Wieso muss man so oft in seinem Leben Entscheidungen treffen mit denen man total überfordert ist? Niemand weiß ob es richtig oder falsch ist. Das ist so beängstigend. Niemand kann einem diese Entscheidung abnehmen. Viele Menschen kommen Gott sei Dank nie an diesen Punkt, was es einem aber nicht gerade leichter macht. Wie gern ich manchmal einfach ein normales Leben führen würde, wobei man in meinem Alter mit weitaus leichteren Entscheidungen konfrontiert ist und man sich nicht den schwerwiegenden stellen muss. Viele solche Erfahrungen können einen stärker machen und man lernt auch sehr viel über sich selbst und sein Leben, aber welche Auswirkungen es auf die Zukunft haben wird, kann niemand sagen. Wie gerne würde ich mich davor einfach verstecken um dem Ganzen aus dem Weg zu gehen, aber da muss man leider durch. Ich hoffe nur, dass ich für mich ein richtige Entscheidung treffen werde, obwohl ich davor sehr große Angst habe. Man kann diesen Gedanken immer wieder weg schieben, nur leider bringt es einen nicht weiter. Ich hoffe, dass sich alles finden wird und ich irgendwann sagen kann, dass diese Entscheidung genau richtig war.

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The best things in life aren't things :)

Life life life life life ....

Had a great day with my family at the "Augsburger Plärrer" today. (Btw the beautiful girl beside me is my lovely twin sister ♥) We had a lot of fun. Unfortunately I'm feeling a little depressed at the moment, there are so many thoughts in my head, about my future, my health situation and so on. I'm a really positive person but on some days this kind of thoughts come to my mind and there's nothing I can do, because there's no answer. I really tried to push these thoughts away, but that's not easy. But I enjoyed this day anyway and let's see what the future brings. I'm truly blessed with my wonderful family and that's the main thing.

Accept it

Some people think that to be strong is to never feel pain. In reality, the strongest people are the ones who feel it, understand it and accept it.  - but it isn't easy to accept it :o

great day, but I'm feeling sooooo tired now...

Today was a really exhausting day for me. We went shopping and it was really great (I had a lot of fun with my twin sister) but I'm feeling so tired now. It's time to take a nap. :)

It's sooooooooooooooooooooo fluffy...

I really love my cute new cherry pit pillow (goat). It's great to relieve abdominal pain and I love the cute look. *-*

Whats going on?!

My face is a mess. I have so irritated skin for a few weeks now. Some areas of my skin are really dry also flushed and it looks like a rash or something like that. I have no idea whats going on. That's so annoying. I told my doctor about my skin problems at my last doctors appointment, but she was really uninterested and her only response was that this might be a side effect of my medication no more, no less. (At the beginning of the appointment she told me about her very stressful day and that everything went wrong at this day, maybe this might be the reason behind her strange behaviour or rather her disinterest - I have no clue.) So, I don't know what to do.